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Planting Music by bearcub94, literature

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Planting Music

There's people all around me Yet I feel so alone My father does not want me And my mother is his clone I have no hiding place No safe haven to call my own But I always seem to lose myself In the comfort of a headphone The sweet symphonies that flow into my ears And tickle my senses that bring me to life Without it I am nothing Without it I am dirt But add a little water And soon I will emerge As a beautiful, flourishing musician Who can take on the world And who said I couldn't do it Because I am a girl?

Lost in Love by bearcub94, literature

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Lost in Love

I don't know where I'm going I'm so lost inside my mind Nothing ever seems right And nothing is ever fine My life has a mind of it's own Like a 3 year old who doesn't listen to mommy Nothing I do is ever good enough For anybody Not even myself Always going through the motions But never really living Singing show tunes when I would rather sing rock Just because I was told to Day after day I walk around school Wondering if I'll ever pass Night after night I lay in bed Wondering if I could break through the glass Nobody ever seems to understand These emotions that I feel They think that I'm just being irrational And all becau

The Smile by bearcub94, literature

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The Smile

As a man was walking in the park one day he came across a little girl and gave her a simple smile. The next day, the little girl went to school and apologized to the boy she had pushed off the swing the previous day. The little boy went home and made soup for his sick mother. When the mom was better, she became a kidney donor to a young woman whose life was on the line, and saved her. And it all started out with just one simple smile.

Kiss of Death by bearcub94, literature

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Never Ever After by bearcub94, literature

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Never Ever After

Who said fairytales aren't real? The prince and the princess. The wars and the victories. The dresses and the dreams. Living a life that is fine. You said I could sparkle and shine. You said I could have the world, With just one flick of your wand. But then, as if the evil witch cast a spell, You turned my life into a living hell. Your average everyday princess living each day, Betrayed by the one she loved. Cheated, lied to, and scammed. My death, you had planned. You would poison my soul and put me to bed, And in the morning I would be dead. But I was smarter than that to trust you. Welcome to my happy never ever after.

Tell Her by bearcub94, literature

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Tell Her

Walk her to class, Tell her "good-bye" even if you'll see her in five minutes, Sing to her no matter how terrible you sound, Hold her hips, Play with her hair, Pick her up and tickle her, Dance with her even if there's no music, Kiss her in the rain, When she looks like hell, tell her she's beautiful, Be sweet to her, Make her cry and then make it up to her, Hold her hand in front of your friends, Whisper in her ear, Send her sweet text messages, When she's sad, do anything to make her smile, And when you fall in love with her, Tell her.

Love Is... by bearcub94, literature

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Love Is...

Love is... Loyalty, sincerity, commitment, honesty. Love is... Being there for eachother, finishing eachothers sentences, laughing at one another. Love is... Not caring what other people think, breaking hte rules for the other, wanting to be with them all the time. Love is... Doing things for them without being asked, sacrificing the little things, comforting them, making them laugh no matter how mad they are at you.

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Planting Music by bearcub94, literature

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Planting Music

Lost in Love by bearcub94, literature

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Lost in Love

ILM Josh 'PeeWee' Jordan by bearcub94, literature

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ILM Josh 'PeeWee' Jordan

In this cold and lonely room, I sit and await the voices to call on me. "Come with us. It'll be alright.", they whisper to me softly. They tell me they won't hurt me, but for reasons I cannot explain, I can't cross over. What is this barrier I cannot rid of? What is this pain I cannot banish? Filled with rage and hate for people I've yet to meet, I cannot stand still. My heart pounding, my head racing. My eyes feel like any moment they could burst out of my face. "What've I got to lose?", I ask myself. "Everything. You've got everything to lose.", I hear from a distance. A mysterious woman's voice whispering in my ear, but when I t

Good-Bye My Angel Dear by bearcub94, literature

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Good-Bye My Angel Dear

My days draw long and weary when you're no longer near. Confidence is filled with questions, strength replaced with fear. The assuredness that I awake with each day is nowhere to be found, As though my dreams and aspirations were buried underground. I hear your voice being carried by wind like your fingers through my hair. I close my eyes and remember your kiss and wish that you were there. So with nothing left but one thing to say to resolve my heartbreak here, Good-bye my darling and my love, Good-bye my angel dear. IN LOVING MEMORY JOSH

Just One Of Those Days by bearcub94, literature

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Just One Of Those Days

"This is the worst day of my life," She says casually as she has a million plus times before. SHe slams the door to her room, blocking the outside world,the chaos, and her parents. Everything is always going wrong and there's nothing she can do. "Leave me alone!" she yells, not really talking to anyone inparticular. She draws in a deep breath. She inhales her troubles, her sorrows, her secrets. She exhales nothing----- all of her feelings stay locked inside. She keeps them close until they consume her soul slowly--bit by bit. Her angry music blasts loudly, heard down the street. But she dosen't care. She is only concerned with he

Another Statistic by bearcub94, literature

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Another Statistic

I don't want to be another statistic. Some suicidal teen who makes a choice to kill herself when the world just seems too mean. She can't go on with life, or so to her it seems. Reality has fallen short and so have her many dreams. I don't want to be another statistic. Some pregnant girl who met this great guy and then gave sex a whirl. She was only fifteen, but it felt so right. She thought they'd be together for more than just one night. I don't want to be another statistic. Some kid strung out on crack who started at a party and now can't go back. First ciggaretes and alchohol now meth, crack and cocaine. She's been smoking it

I AM by bearcub94, literature

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I AM

I am a poet writing of my pain. I am a person living a life of shame. I am your daughter hiding my depression. I am your sister making a good impression. I am your friend acting like I'm fine. I am a wisher wishing this life weren't mine. I am a girl who thinks of suicide. I am a student who dosen't have a clue. I am the girl sitting next to you. I am the one asking you to care. I am your best friend hoping you'll be there.

Numb by bearcub94, literature

Suffocating by bearcub94, literature

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Suffocating

I am suffocating and I just need to breathe. I'm smothered under pressure, I must be relieved. Nothing I do is right, nothing they say is fair. I cry and scream and throw a fit, but no one seems to care. Nobody will listen to what I have to say. My life is not important, yet I'm living everyday. I can't do what I want, I cannot stay out late. Here I sit and write my feelings to release my pain and hate. I'm confused and I'm alone, I'm lost inside my mind. No one will search beyond my looks to see what they might find. So many thoughts confuse me, and I just need to leave. None of it makes sense, none of this seems real. And no on

Again by bearcub94, literature

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Again

If you wake up in the morning, And the hurting is so great You don't want to get out of bed And face a world of hate. If everything in life goes wrong And nothing you do seems right, You just try a little harder And soon you'll see the light. For every person who has put you down And filled your life with pain, You must strive to acheive greatness And show them you can win. For every dissapointment For the times you were let down, there will come a better moment And your life will turn around. Because everyone feels heartache And everyone fells pain. But only those who have true courage Can get up and try again.

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ilm uncle bud by bearcub94, literature

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ilm uncle bud

Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave me? Why so soon? I wasn't ready for it. Wasn't prepared. One moment you were here, and the next you were gone. Why when I need you the most? Why when I'm going through so many changes? So many transitions. So much drama. Life just dosen't have the same meaning anymore. Without my inspiration, I am lost. Without that push in my life, I am useless. Without my motivation, I am empty. With you gone, everyone and myself who ever loved you are left in pain and drowning in sorrow. Why couldn't you have stayed for just a little while longer? Why did God have to take you so quickly? Th

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Deviant for 16 years
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Current Residence: u freakin stalker
Favourite genre of music: ROK ALL KINDS, old skool rap, and some country(hey u gotta b a hillbilly sometime)
Favourite photographer: hmmmm idk
Favourite style of art: anything that dosent bug me
MP3 player of choice: 8gb green ipod nano
Shell of choice: turtle lololz
Wallpaper of choice: anything that i think is koolio
Skin of choice: urs...creepy much? lolz
Favourite cartoon character: wall-e
Personal Quote: im just one big FREAKIN ray of sunshine

Favourite Visual Artist

my friend Shekinah a.k.a. SUSHI, ellice, and adrienne(a.k.a. inu inuzuka)

Favourite Movies

wall-e

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

right now? kerli, barlow girl, and the veronicas

Favourite Writers

Emm Jai and samhatie94

Favourite Games

watev im interested in at the time

Favourite Gaming Platform

Wii

Tools of the Trade

bein a P.I.T.A.

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working on becoming a star

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bearcub94

Apr 20, 2009

Devious Journal Entry

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You remember watching: [X] Kenan and Kel [] Doug [] Ren & Stimpy [X] Pinky and the Brain [X] AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! [X] Rockos modern Life [x] Animaniacs [X] Gargoyles [X] Hey Arnold [X] Out of the Box [X] Bear in the Big Blue House [X] You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!" [X] You just can't resist finishing this . . ."In west Philadelphia born and raised..." [X] Step by Step [X] Family Matters [x] Dinosaurs [X] Boy Meets World [X] Full House [X] The Magic School Bus [X] Wishbone [X] Reading Rainbow [x] Ghostwriter [X] Batman the Animated Series [X] Aladdin [X] Ninja Turtles [X] Ghost Busters [x] Du

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bearcub94

Dec 31, 2008

christmas eve shooting

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I'm not sure if any of you have heard news of the christmas eve shooting in covina, california and I'm not sure if you even know where that is or if you care for that matter.  Well, whatever your case may be this is a very sad and devastating happening.  I was just on google looking up info because covina happens to be my hometown.  Upon my research I discovered that 13 children were orphaned, 1 is left with 1 parent dead, and a senior at ontario high school.  His name was Michael Ortega.  He was active one the baseball team since his freshman year and was considered the best hitter.  He was also a very good student.  While reading this I beg